Hi Again: Here's An Update...

This is a twenty-something me with my girl in Florence.

Remembering my Bellarose today.  She passed away 12/9/2006 from cancer when she was 13 years old.

I miss my Bella.  We'll always have Italy.

December 9, 2011

I never knew back then how my life would unfold.  None of us do really.  Some people say that's half the fun.  My road travelled thus far has been full of many blessing, set backs, heartache, love and self discovery.  I always have considered myself a work in progress.  

I've had a few emotional weeks and a lot of sleepless nights, which doesn't help.  But I did start back at the gym and I'm hoping it will help my mood and my sleep.  I applaud those that can recover and just get on with it.  I seem to do OK, then I stummble and I find that I just have to cry when I want to cry.  A TV personality has decided to have a bilateral mastectomy to eradicate her cancer and in an article regarding her story someone wrote, "that woman tend to bounce back rather quickly after a mastectomy."  Guess I didn't get that memo when I left the hospital.

I can't believe the holidays are here.  I thought we were going to have a low-key Christmas but Mom's been decorating her house since Thanksgiving and it's all for a little guy we all know and LOVE.  You see awhile ago he just broke out in song.  He started with "tinkle-tinkle little star" then "itsy-bitsy-spider" so I started singing Christmas songs to the boy and he hasn't let up.  We sing Christmas songs every night.  For this, Mom thought that Jack, only two, "gets it" and so he needed a winter wonderland.  So if any of you are in the area, stop over to Mom's house and check it out.  Jack LOVES it and told his Anni, "Thank you Anni.  This is all for me and it's all brand-spankin new."  No joke, his words! 

At our house I did my standard Charlie Brown tree, which turned out lovely, but my aunt had an 8 foot tree delivered to the house a few days ago.  I knew it was coming and I swore Jack didn't need another tree.  Wrong again!  Anni stayed over Thursday night while I got my hair done (long overdue) and decorated this tree with Jack.  When I got home I walked in to see the happiest little boy.  The tree is beautiful and Jack couldn't be more excited.  Holidays are for children.  They really do bring out the best in all of us.  You see a child with pure joy on there face.....it's heaven.  Thank you Mom for making our houses so beautiful!!!

Jack seeing Anni's house for the first time.

Jack's BIG tree.

Thanks again everyone for continuing to check in with me and my family. 

Mom, please rest now and just enjoy all that you have done.

Peace and Love,

Janeen