I'm having one of those moments tonight where I can't see the forest through the trees. So much is going through my head tonight. I can't shut off my head. Sept. 12th is right around the corner and will I be strong enough to handle all of this pressure I'm feeling? I cry at the weirdest times and I'm not feeling sorry for myself I just don't know for the first time in my life if I'm going to be OK. It is very scary for me to feel so vulnerable and at the same time handle so much. All of you reading this post, I'm bearing my soul...I'm so scared. I love all the prayers everyone is saying and all the words of encouragement mean so much. I know it has been difficult for you to comment on the blog but I remember everything you all have told me and I will share it with Janeen once she is made aware of what I have done. The offers of help are overwhelming and I think I've stated early on I will take you up on your offers once we settle in at home. She will be coming home with drains and I can only imagine she will feel better once all those are removed. I'm guessing she will be up for company and a good laugh and a glass of wine (?). She is staying very busy, as am I, but now the days are just moving by so quickly. There is still so much for me to organize this final week. OMG!!!! I can do this, there's no turning back now.
Since I started this blog four more women, ( friends of friends) have had the same proceedure done that Janeen is doing on the 12th. Before Janeen was tested for BRCA 1 & 2 I had never heard of this type of breast reconstruction. I don't think I have mentioned that after four months of healing she will have the second part of this surgery. I won't go there now.
Thank you....thank you....thank you to all of you. Your phone calls and emails have touched me deeply.
FAITH is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase. And that's the truth!
Barb
