In one week today and at this time Janeen will have been in surgery 5 hours. I have so much to do today but I feel like I am in slow motion and crying on and off which I can't control. I remember Janeen saying a couple of weeks ago she felt like she was in slow motion also. What's this feeling all about?. Just typing this I feel like my hands are made of cement. I'm short with Janeen and my dogs are driving me to drink. I'm going to tape their mouths shut.
Last evening I took my little family out for our last family dinner for awhile. Darren's moved in to his condo, so it was Darren, Janeen & Jack, Suzi & Jerry and ME! Jack sat through a 2 1/2 hour dinner all dressed up so cute in Burberry. We had a fabulous meal ( we went to Gulfstream ) and everyone was given a little gift which was my way to convey how much I love them all as well as thank you for being together as a family. Lot's of tears but that little Jack.....everytime the top came off a present he screamed, raised his little arms and clapped. He would get so excited, tears turned to laughter and everyone around us got the biggest kick out of him. To say it was a wonderful evening is an understatement.
Janeen starts her medicine regime this week. This is one area I didn't get involved in. I'm the keeper of the drugs for after her surgery. We might have to get some refills by then. (I'm joking). We're all staying busy and that means me too. I have to go do my errands before the days end. I hope Janeen can pull herself out of this funky mood she is in, if not I'll just have to be patient and compassionate. I want to slap her out of it or shake her, but I guess I'll just smother her with love. She is my baby girl!
Love to all, Barb
